SHADOWS REALM

My dear readers... (All 3 of you) :-)


I have been MIA for a while due to a very good reason. My trusty Dell inspiron laptop that I have had for about 4 years, has taken its last breath and cracked out on me on the 15th of December. My hard-drive crashed and I have been trying to hustle and get a new one. Ideally, being that I knew my PC was getting up there in age, I wanted to upgrade to a new Dell laptop before it crashed so that I can transfer my data. So right now all my photographs, videos, documents, music and games are somewhere in cyber land on my hardrive. I have no pesos right now for a new one and my warranty exprired on the PC April of this year. But I am not entirely screwed. My primary issue when it happened was my information. The light at the end of the tunnel is that it will only cost me $150 to get all of my data with the Best Buy geek squad. But first I need a new PC. And an external hardrive. Bleh!


Anybody want to donate to my new PC fund? :-)


In any case, this blog will be on hiatus for a while. I am not able to get into blogger mode here in Harlem by my grandmothers (Im using her laptop). Lets hope I can get back into the business early within the new year.

I have no words. But this song pretty much sums up the primary emotion I feel. I love when I can just go to a song and it pour out whats in my head or heart. Music is a big part of my being:




Follow you close four steps behind.
Part of me knew all of this time.
Pushed it down deep, kept it so small.
To help me keep these fragile walls,
From crashing down around my feet.
Don't make a sound, just let you be.
Lost in her face, can't turn away.
This final blow helps me let go.

Don't stop now, I need this to hurt.
Burn it into my mind.
No more second guessing anymore.
This is how it ends.
So don't stop now, get my head on straight.
And if seeing this is what it takes,
Please don't stop it now.
This will be the last time.

This darkened street you go to hide.
Illuminates you are not mine.
These tears run cold, my body numb.
I am not whole, what have you done.
It all makes sense, the disconnect.
Too many words we left unsaid.
But still I stare frozen here.
Until the curtains close.

Don't stop now, I need this to hurt.
Burn it into my mind.
No more second guessing anymore.
This is how it ends.
So don't stop now, get my head on straight.
And if seeing this is what it takes,
Please don't stop it now.
This will be the last time.

I need to see this through until this final bow.
Illusions gone, the show is done.
So don't stop now.

Follow you close four steps behind.
Part of me knew you are not mine.


Artist: Emmy Rossum


This song has been on repeat on my MP3 this morning when I was on the subway. Now it is on repeat on my PC.